Words & Thoughts Are Magic

I still find it fascinating how I can be hurt by something one day and just get over it. I mean just outright suffering over a single thought and then voila. It's over, that's how I know for a fact emotions are only thoughts. I need to stop focusing on low frequency ideas. They are such poison. Creating with intention is no small task. But it is very much worth the effort I am making. Just thoughts bouncing around and they can make me feel so emotionally drained. Trying to understand anything outside of the vortex is pointless, but old habits die hard. On a lighter note. It's all gravy now. I was recharged by all the positive meditation I took part in this weekend. Also I had a good night's fuck....I mean sleep. lol. I mean both. But the point is it was a good night for me. Intention is everything. I mean even if a person wants to be a good person, they still can be vibrating all funky because they have poisonous intentions. Man, there is still so much I have to learn in this world. The weight of all the information I don't have can just crush me. I am laying back more and becoming a watcher. There is much to be gained from just watching. You find out things that hurt you. But watching. Not listening to others, or adding your own flavor, just watching. One can really see the grid very clear. Watching I guess can be a form of meditation. I say a form because thinking is involved. Besides that, having instruments available changes everything. No thought needs to go unexpressed. I've also found that I can now say less. I can write a song or play the piano for a while and get a lot out. I don't need to express everything to people. I think people who over-share are desperate to express something that would have ended up in a song or a poem. If they knew what was good. Music has helped me to understand the world in a new way. I waited so long for so many people. And for what? This was a personal adventure all along. I just didn't have eyes to see, or maybe I was afraid to see. Either way I am refreshed and I feel safe inside of my own heart. I've freed myself from some unknown oppressor. Not through physical means but through the universal melody I've tapped into. What I will become in the future is still a mystery. For now I'm freer. Everyday I get happier. It's kind of a scary feeling. But it seems everyday I get happier. My heart gets a little lighter. I really did have the weight of the world on my shoulders for nothing. I mean fuck 'em. We are the all seeing, all dying, rotten corpse scums of the universe. There is really no reason to hold a single thing back. Because who are we reporting to but ourselves? Who can we please but ourselves? So strange how I get caught up in the nothingness. I have to tell myself everyday. I am creating this reality. I see what I want to see. I am the person I have always wanted to be. This is my dream life. I am on the dream planet, at the best time in the world. All things are here for me. All people come in the name of love to me. This is the right time for all the I seek. Also I am very much in love with a beautiful brave creative man. Who has never left my side since the day we laid eyes on one another. He has been on my side with a song, a story, a painting , or song for nine long years. I'm so fucking lucky for that I can slap myself for complaining. So I will rise above my own bullshit and be more grateful. For the love I have around me. I am surrounded with love. And it is the exact kind I dreamed of before I came to this world. So here's to no more tears wasted on low vibrating thoughts. Here's to patience and my quiet room. Here's to my piano and to my voice. Here's to my tears becoming seas and rivers of pulchritude...Here's to Josalisa and her perpetual RiOt.