A Rampage Of Appreciation

I want to thank my Guru for being my teacher. I already have, but I want to say it again. I am changed. I am the same but in my heart I am changed. In this world you have to have your allies. You have to make an alliance with those who live in the same vibrational vortex. Even if you have to change your life to reach your peers. I had to fight my fear to reach my goals. I had to free myself from the programming. I have been reprogrammed by myself. Possibly by my Guru. Or maybe I want to say it's my Guru because I don't want to admit it was my own power. But I know it was. I'm getting stronger, I'm getting further away from my programming. What if my hero was my best friend? What if my Lover was the co-creator in this dream? What if we all worked towards true freedom of the mind? There is no what if...it is reality. I am reaching for real joy. Real joy is here. And so is honesty and really looking at myself. From my on prospective with uncensored and uninfluenced eyes. I see myself as a great continuation of the Entity. The creativity that is within me spills out. So today I dance with my death and my fear. All of my reality is created by me. I only see what I want. And all of my dreams come true. Every moment is a dream. I walk in the light of pure joy and sail the stream of true dreaming. I am only will. Thank you for the in spirited. Thank you for the dream believers. Thank you for my family. Thank you for my allies. Thank you for my supporters. Thank you for the code. Thank for the patience. Thank you for the love. Thank you for The Family. Thank you for Mars being visible tonight. Thank you for the knowledge of self. Thank you for the strength to use it. Thank you. I am a dream come true. There is much love here. This is Josalisa in a Love Riot. 

A Final Release

I'm freer still today. I'm not sure what happened to me. But I have fucking exploded with joy. It's not the run through the streets kind...well it sort of is. It's strange to write about joy. You see I'm really into my post- apocalyptic cyber punk blogger spiel. It's been going well. But I guess it's not for today. Today is all about freedom. Freedom of expression. The freedom to say do and be whoever you want. No matter what. I guess I pretty much have it down to a science. But I don't celebrate it enough. I've been set free from my mental bondage. I tried so many routes. I won't revel here what road I have taken. I will say only this, it's the road to ultimate freedom for real. I can see why so many people seem fucking miserable. No one wants to see the reality of this world. 

The world's darkness is it's light. The world's light is it's darkness. And in the biding blinding light of that darkness is true freedom. I started the year off focusing only on what I want. And yes...I want some stupid fucked up shit, but I hope to be smarter when I'm older so I don't beat myself up so bad. I'm sort of scared to revel this but every single thing I have focused on has come true. It's so fucking freaky I have not even wanted to write about it until now. And I kind of still don't want to. All of these manifestations that I hoped would free me eventually did. I mean it has. I was only trapped in my own mind. It's not a physical prison, but I could not see my way out. So I was trapped. The strange thing is, and no one warned me about this. About this part of using my full power in the world. I had a sneaking suspicion this may happen but I never expressed it. The more I get what  I want, the more fucked up crazy shit I want. I am in no way searching for the beautiful light at the end of the rainbow, a childhood dream no doubt. I want the darkness at the end of the tunnel. I just want to touch it. To see if it's real. I know it is real. I just want to see if I can handle it. Can I make it all real. Can I touch all I dream of. And how many demons shall I see on this trip? Will they all be of assistance? It's funny how what I thought was true was so not. I mean it was, but not in the way I saw it. Everything in my mind is true. And all of my dreams are real. I guess that's why some of them are funny. I can really come up with some fucked up shit in my mind. But I still want to do it, because I know it will be fun and liberating. What am I trying to be liberated from? From my own mind still. It is filled with all the things I still have to unlearn. All the knowledge I really need I have forgotten. So I am working on instinct. Using all the things I have leaned about matter manipulation and ...well that really is enough. The madness is gaining on me and I love it. I have surrendered to the thing deep down inside of me. I have left the spring of my youth and entered the winter of my descent. As I look back what will I miss? At the end of what I hope to be a year long journey, what will be revealed to me? The more I learn the less I care to share. That is strange to me because I am used to telling everything. But the passage of information in some cases can dilute it. So in this post I have reveled nothing. Which is the first step in learning everything. I am Josalisa and this is a RiOt of epic proportions.