Magic Is The Answer

This week I really made it through some adversities. I never thought I was strong enough to face certain things. Turns out I have the ability to do way more than I think. Not only that but people around me and stranger expect it from me. So it's all gravy. Yesterday was a good day with the fam. I've been having plenty of good days with the fam. I am very thankful for them. I am also very thankful for JoJo. It would be such a struggle right now without him. Every woman needs a person in her life she can love and trust. A shoulder to cry on and a friend to lean on. Plus who else is going to deal with a total geek-bag like me? I know he would never let me go, and if I tried to leave him he would fight for me. I am grateful for that. The other thing I am grateful for is my fingers. All of last year they were used in pursuit of creativity. And I made some pretty good things. Some good music and funny poems and of course the colorful pictures of the strangest things I dream. I am very thankful for these fingers. So today will be a good day. One of adventure and the fulfillment of curious endeavor. I feel braver and more confident. I never knew I had a problem with confidence. But there is something to be said for doing things with intention as opposed to just blindly jumping in head first. I am a dream come true. I have to remember that. For myself I am a dream come true. I have created this life. It's a struggle but it's coming along just fine. I believe in the things I have made. I will stand by them. Soon I will do my first performance and that is going to be a whole other level of new madness. I am looking forward to it with fear that I will be booed off of stage. But that would be hella funny so maybe there is no fear. I am just happy to be in this moment. When I have let go of the things that bother and block me and let in only the things I want. This life is a dance with death and heartache. But when you feel really free inside. What or who can really challenge you? When you see inspiration in all things. What obstacles are there for you? When you know who you are then the battle has been won. I have to remind myself that the fight I am in has been won a long time ago. I'm only shadow boxing now. It's really funny to look at things that way. All of this struggle and holding back is just shadow boxing. There is not obstacle in my way. My Mom is home and well now. I was hurt that no one I know called to ask about her. But that has nothing to do with me. Most are empty inside. And I can not take simple things personally. I felt I learned that lesson but somewhere deep down inside I think I'm just understanding how not to do it. Take it personal I me. It's nothing to do with me. It's a vast universe out there. It has too be overwhelming at times. When I close my eyes I feel only love beauty and joy. That's what I radiate. If I don't see it reflected back it has nothing do with me. So here's to today. it just a day like any other. But I have my paintbrush in my back pocket. I will paint it to the tones I want to see. And blow a little tune on my little flute just for me...This has been another message from Josalisa in a perpetual RiOt of epic proportions.