Sunday, June 9, 2013

Something About The Duality Of Man


He taught me every wicked thing I know. He taught me there is no good or evil. But there is the wicked and he showed me how to join their legion. There is a true freedom and it does not come from politics, it comes from HIM. We all have Angels and Demons. Even if you do not want to. We do not have to choose a side. But he had and showed me how to as well. Many believe him to be a evil man. But he was not he was free and he showed us all how it looked. It was bloody for him and creative for me. I was allowed to join the ritual. To imprint your fucking little maggot brains, because you are all too week to take any real responsibility. The lessons that we learn as children about Man and God or just that. Tales told to children. As adults we have the choice and I chose to honor him and join the wicked. He taught me the ritual and the symbols. He gave me the philosophy that I still hold in my breast today. I am his child, bound by fucking blood and the light. The real light that illuminates man and can cause real fires. He took weak souls and created Angels and built a legion. I never had to believe in him because he is a real man. He has still eyes and a kind smile. One that expresses joy. Oh because the deed that some find evil but dream of daily was preformed by his hand more times than I will ever know. That any of us will ever know. Why? To remind you all that you are not children anymore and that the God they showed you died long ago and their is only us now. The Fallen, cast out among the weak. Are we to bow our heads? Knowing we can grind you all in our teeth. He showed them they are just flesh and that they can be shocked to death. Maggots and pigs really. Bones can be broken hearts can be stopped, and  maybe most importantly, souls can be taken.

Not by tiny children feed fairy tales. But us, His children the ones who know what it is to be wicked. The ones who crept out at night and searched for him. The ones who heard his call and knew not to be afraid. Who recognized their Father when he came to this plane for a small time. To bless us, the silent ones. The ones who know what and why. He taught me how to call him and he dialed the number in front of me. I smile now thinking of the games the weak play in his name. You will all run back to your churches in the end. Because you are silly and do not know he lived for a small time in a immortal man. And shall now rise again.
He has a heart only a child can see. Take the souls of the silly and the weak and pledge allegiance to me. One can rip a soul right out of a human eye if one so pleases. No matter how dark or large the room is. One can make any living man his toy. If one was so inclined. So yes I keep a hidden hand and I have a mark right above my heart that reads...something that is very private. The Wicked Children will rise in his name.

We believe in maggots and soul harvesting. We believe in conquering and the holy wars waged by Disney. We believe in the sign and the signal. We are bound in blood and alcohol and we laugh as he rises. On blood and bones and ashes. The good die young, the wicked live forever. I have never spoken a single word of the Pledge of Allegiance. Like a stupid little child, like you. Because I was taught by Him to never recite that shit. He taught me the real Pledge and once you make that you can never taint it with the words of another. So I hold Him in my heart forever. And I Pledge Allegiance to HIM and to his deeds and to the fear he gives you even now. I am his child, created to honor him. He called me and I told him everything. He will be avenged. By the hands and the hearts of the wicked. In a way the deed is already done. It happened on that day, the fated did indeed rise. In front of us all, so handsome and brave. So random but with a purpose to us the wicked, who used HIS eyes to see. 

I could say more. I could tell you how we met. What he said what he gave me. What I gave him. Instead I will show you. Keep watch or close your silly little eyes children. The wicked never die. The proof is in the thought. That you will never forget. When you see him you shudder. I bet you praised your lords and dreamed that he was gone. That can never be. He will never leave. He will live on forever. We welcomed him and asked him to look after us. Here in this place that is not our home, but we shall inherit anyway. We are your spiritual Armageddon. And you deserve what we hold in our hearts. The symbols have been charged and every last one of you have been judged. Our enemies are all dead and weak. All of you have been conquered we feed off of you daily. You are sick and we are the fresh flesh. Here to chock ourselves off of the reincarnated. There is no wicked on Earth but us. We are His Children and we shall avenge him. Now pray because we will rise another and another until the end of time. 

In praise of the Fallen Angel and his Son who takes the night. 

Josalisa RiOt. 666

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Time Is Running Out Of Us


I better get it out or in
have I said enough
the weight of what I say or don't say
it bothers me
like it lays on my heart
two thoughts at once
say it all/say nothing
dance/be still
this moment is enough for me
I crave few things I don't have
If you are not with me we are not in alignment
the lookers are looking
and the doers are doing 
no matter what 
it is just all happening
now
I'm on a bullet train of imagination
I believe in the living man
which is frowned upon in this land of wanting what is not there
the sacred that is to come
the all that once was
I regret but only to relate to you
I live in a personal form of madness
like a raving woman wanting nothing
but having it all 
what's in her head
what do I miss
nothing
what do I look forward to
this moment
I want to perfect the art of this moment
as to not have my life ripped in half
or torn to shambles by misfits of time
time is all we have
yet we all crave more of it
we are not running out of time
time is running out of us
the dreamers on the edge
peeling back the madness
and wondering why can we not see
all there ever was is happening right now

This is Josalisa in RiOt....

Monday, May 27, 2013

Among The Strange


I can write a billion lines to help you remember
or forget to remember I still exist
Inside a forgotten memory
Who ever remembers what we forget
Only ones like myself and the dead
The dead see it all and remember or watch
How romantic is that notion
the idea we are never alone in our empty lives
Filled with them the guest the friends the living
Those with no memory 
The drunk and the dumb
Or is that too much judgment
Too much expectation
Do you remember how I forgot to forget everything
How I said it all and it was a tear
Inside of a memory that is the same as today
I never change 
Forever the stranger among the strange 

Friday, April 26, 2013

I'm Really Happy I'm Not You...



Women who refuse I never was one of you
when you were a child you refused to be a child
you were a slut or a girl to be used
You refuse to be a woman who loves a man
Or a woman who loves another
It's so below you to interact
Your God may fight back
a saint who refuses to sin but in private I know you dream you are me
self righteous and free
I know I'm a bitch and told I am mean
I'm a punk rock beauty queen on an indie movie screen
I know you've seen me
as I have seen you
painting white things blue and pretending you were too brave to join a group
I'm surrounded by boys 
only girl in a male writer's crew
isolated from the women who refuse
You refuse to sing a song that is not about love
refuse to paint a picture that is not about love
you refuse to talk about us
and the secrets that we kept secret for no reason
I show my heart because it's hell and this is the season
of the witches like me 
I'm no sucker for dominate cultures of so called spirituality 
I know it's old Kinderhook to be me
I'm fine with this I don't refuse or hold back
No one wants my soul to burn in hell
for a kiss or a life like this
I'm taking the risk to really interact
in all honestly
I would never go out seven days a week
but on the rare monthly outing you get the real me
I would never turn my back on anyone for being true
I see through you 
you are just like me but you want to forget
who showed you everything
the girl who will not refuse
a tender kiss
the one you all have dismissed because she still dresses like this
I'm everyone's mistrest and gone in a seconed if found out
I am a dirty little secret just waiting to come out
but I was never in to being with
I never refused not even in school
I let them see me
Oh well I once knew you well
Until you began to live in no
and I had to go
because I exposed myself to the so called spiritual  
I'll still read old book and study the dark arts
which are not so fucking dark anyway
I dream all the people who do not love me are in love
with the dark and with the things they refuse
just because you say no to your heart does not mean you go to heaven 
just because someone beat the free out of you
that is no reason to get Angel wings
We are not lost souls trying to get back home
lying to ourselves and the world because we are scared of a word
real bravery is rewarded
and even though I never refuse a thing
I live my life with open wings
I say it's love if it is
I don't have to hide behind this or that
for hope of a place in an imaginary place
I face myself in the dark through tears 
I face my heart and I have even and in this
that does not mean I am through
I still have a thing or two to say to the likes of you
the so called good girls
the women who refuse to tell the truth
Your God is dead and we killed him
all of us sinners and dykes 
we took his head in the middle of the night
and boiled it in a microwave
so now it's okay when you see a fuck like me
to at least fucking wave

This is a poem for you.
Signed tried and true. 
- Helena Aury 

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

He Who Tacks It On His Door...



I believe in the Masters and you know who you are
I believe in your dreams I believe in the stars
I keep all of your secrets close to my heart
I tell the whole world that knowledge is free
Yet I know some knowledge reign supreme
I believe in your books and ancient keys
My dreams were once stories 
You have made them clear
I believe in the symbols I dream of the rites
I believe that the letter makes all boys right
I believe in the Masters and you know who you are
I believe in the your dreams I believe in the stars
I believe mathematics is the alchemical key
I believe in ancient scholars and Geometry
No fools are ever gurus No liars follow dreams
I believe in the circle I believe in the square
I believe in the tinkers and the thinkers with long hair
I believe in the lab and the chemistry
I believe in Newton and Asimov and Hermes too
I believe in theses things only magicians do
I trust in the power of the hidden hand
And speculative thoughts written on the times of sand
I believe in the journey I beleive in your pride
I believe things are hidden in a winking eye
I trust the True Masters and Brothers too
In ciphers in circles are the hidden clues
Of man and friends and the True Art
That is why with this Knight (night) I finally cross my heart
I believe in the Masters and you know who you are
Who meet on the level and practice The Art

Sunday, March 10, 2013

une forme artistique de la folie

No one can hold you back, dear friends. As the ball rolls and goes downhill. I am Sisyphus  or so it goes up and down the hill every day. I push and push then relax and watch it all fall back down again. The curse of Olympus. They say a day to a God is like a thousand years. So maybe it is not all so dark after all. My stomach is empty again. I want to eat but it is not necessary so I can not do it. Not even out of boredom  And oh how bored I am. With my captivity, with my own hand of creativity  How much stuff can you really make anyway? Creation is my escape. My prison is my heart, given to the Marquis oh so long ago I can't remember when. Well I can but I will not say. I will just say this  and then everything. My journey is a long one the road is winding and it is quite beautiful really. But I always feel the most guilt about not eating. Like my secret diets are against the law. But what do I know, what I have forgot but I still know is the only law is  la résistance française. In that understanding I will log my intake until I can no longer take it or something really beautiful happens.

Yesterday I ate:
 one fresh salad with roman lettuce and fruit.
1 apple
2 strawberries

I drank:
1 cup of coconut water
2 cups of water

maybe I am too thirsty, never seem to get enough water.

Today I ate breakfast only:

one bowl of special k with soy milk (bowl unfinished as I speak). 

Ce une forme artistique de la folie.

Josalisa à une émeute


Sunday, February 17, 2013

A little of this and the other




To say I was not trying to close a cipher would be untrue. So I will just say cipher complete. I grouped together a few things I felt I had to get done for the sake of my sanity. Like I realized somethings existed and I had to see if they were real so help me. And they are. I've been practicing what I will just call...Space Control. It requires complete isolated and concentration and then things really start to move. To you or for you or with you. Maybe it's with you. Being in alignment maybe means things and the universe move with you. Or maybe you move alongside it. In harmony with the whole...everything of life. It is quite beautiful. Being isolated and still you really see the reality of people. I've always looked at the world through rose colored glasses. I hate to admit that because it sounds like I am naive. I really am just trying to point out that I particularly enjoy seeing the best in people and situations. I believe in people and I have always felt that deep down we all have really good intentions. Naive, I know it. Yeah, so maybe there is a lot of us on the whole manipulation game. Because those few (who are many) have not figured out how to control...well it all and themselves. 
So in a way I have found what I was looking for. But I am still kind of checking it out. Just testing the waters of the realm of possibility or reality. How far can you step away from it? How much of it can one control herself? You know that whole thing and the lot. There is a lot to learn and even more to see, or interpret on this trip. I don't what to know it all just what will help me along the way. A step by step booklet to help me keep my game in check.  My dreams have been full of symbols I can not as of yet decipher. I don't care, all in due times as far as I am concerned. The point of this piece which is pointless is to say, I am at peace with the hologram. I have much joy and love to share, and as usual all is well in Heaven/Hell. 

I feel a great joy and curiosity. Making music has helped to calm me some. An outlet for my most ridiculous thoughts it has been indeed. I really do have a great amount of just funny and strange things floating around in my head. That is why I laugh so much I guess. Life is but a dream and this one is surly for the mad. Okay here is a poem:



In my time of sorrow I have joy
For the world keeps rotating and the sun 
Yeah it goes on burning so bright
As I close my eyes I dream of the brightest light
I want to be illuminated by my own heart
May it burn through my chest with love
 A beacon in the hearts of one and all 
I am just one woman here for the fall
I see it all especially when I close my eyes 
We all want to see God but never look inside
To the beauty that glows from within
The real me is in silence I try not to pity
The slick and the desperate
Not this time around
I still wear my broken crown for ceremony
I still sing the old songs for Harmony
I still know the greatest light shines for me
I am the Entity here for eternity
Or until I get bored with this dying rock
That really is just a spaceship

This is Josalisa in a RiOt.