Further Adventures In Unfinished Erotic Fan Fiction Part 2

I rush to the window to watch him get into his car and drive away. As I watch him get into his Aston Martin DSB I wonder if I made him happy today. Either way it's a long day of missing him. I get to work on the list he left me working through the itching bruises. I really need to put peroxide and cream on my back. I go collect the linen from all of the rooms and take it over to the laundry cottage out back.  Then I run back upstairs to grab the things for the cleaners. I also grab some big shades. I have a few bruises on my face and I despise the way the women who work there look at me from over the counter. I take a quick look into the mirror and the bruises are very clear and swollen and so are the ones on my lip. Maybe a little lipstick. Fucking bitches I really hate having to go out in the daytime. I pick up the grocery list he left on the entrance table.


I have all of my duties performed  including making a dinner that I could not eat. He calls at 2:30 to make sure I was done and to tell me we had a special task because it had began to rain. He began with detailed instruction of what I was to wear and how I was to remember my posture. "Go outside and sit in the garden out front until I tell you to move. Take the phone with you." I run upstairs and put on the white lace cami and pink underwear like instructed and head out to the front garden. It is pouring down and I am cold. The no shoe part of the his instructions may prove to be the hardest part. I am already freezing when I sit down in the chair. I can see the neighbors from here and of course if they are not blind they can clearly see me. I hope this is not going to be a long exercise. I start to ask him since he is still on the phone but I think again and decide not to. "Are you sitting down yet? he ask. I answer yes. "Are you cold? he ask. I answer yes. "No you are not. Use your mind to regulate your temperature" he says. I think to ask if my mind can stop the rain but I know better and just say nothing. I stay in this position for one hour. He stays silent on the other end of the phone."Are you still cold?" I finally hear him say. Yes I answer. "That's because you are not regulating your temperature. Start with your feet and just relax." Since my feet are frozen they can not be relaxed. I attempt to regulate them for the next thirty minutes. I finally hear him on the other end of the phone. He tells me he will call me back and not to move until he says so.


At 6Pm he calls me back to say he is down the street. I had almost fell asleep sitting there. Of course my neighbors walking by asking me why I was sitting out in the garden in the rain kept me active. It was testament to their ultra polite English background that they did not mention my being in underwear. Master pulls into the driveway and I contain my need to run into his arms. My muscles are really sore at this point. He gets out of the car with his Guy De Jean Umbrella. He walks over to me and rubs my wet head. He kisses me on the forehead. "Thank you for doing this for me. You look so beautiful right now. I'll be right out to get you." He turns around and walks into the house. I wait outside for him in the pouring rain until 9pm. I wonder what he is doing while I wait. Eating his dinner. Taking off his clothes. Taking a shower. Working on songs. The cold turns to numb than to pride in my heart at the level of discipline I am showing. I really want to make master proud of me. Sometimes I think it is too hard, but at moments like this when I am offered such an opportunity. It's hard not to be a little overwhelmed with joy at my level of discipline. He has taught me so much and I am so thankful. I wonder if he realizes how much I love him when my neighbor walks over. "Are you okay sweetheart?" Yes I answer not looking at him. "You've been out here for a while, aren't you cold" I'm fine, thank you for asking Superman. Still not looking at him I answer, "Thank you, I am fine." I see him go to the front door. Master opens it and they begin to talk. I see the neighbor guy immediately start to laugh and I know he has been told the truth about why I am out here. He looks at me again and starts to say something but just smiles and walks away. I hear Sir close the door behind him.


It is 10pm when he finally calls me to say I can come inside.

Unfinished Erotic Fan Fiction

Does he understand or care that I sleep better in his tight space. I know he locks me away so I don't bother him while he is sleeping. Plus I really don't deserve to be in his bed. He is so much more powerful than I can ever hope to be. He smells so good and takes up so much space in bed. In the place he puts me I feel his love. As he chains me to his bed and gags me, as he blindfolds me. I feel his breath on my neck, whispering for me not to hold back my cries. I can't believe he thinks I would hold anything back? I want him to know I appreciate the pain he gives me. The freedom he gives me to let everything out. Where would I be without what he has taught me? I feel so free and beautiful in the special place he has given me. After he finishes with me, after he has cum and let me cum. After he has released me from his chains on his bed. He gives me my special gear. My sleep gear. He ties me up in the bondage of night. Places my special anal plug deep inside of my ass. It's always a surprise how gentle he is when placing it inside. Even though he does not use lube for anal sex. He uses it for the anal plug I sleep in. I always feel such exhilaration as he leads me to his cage, on my knees, by the chain made into the plug. When he places me inside, I look up at him with tears in my eyes. Because I miss him at night. He always leaves me a little something so I don't cry about that all night. Right before he closes the metal gate shut. As I lay down in my tight space in his closet. He says, "Open your mouth my little pig." When I do with my eyes open, so eager for one last look at him. One last taste of him. When I have my eyes and mouth open. He looks at me and says, "wider". I know he wants me to open my mouth wide until it really hurts. And I am. But I know he wants me to try harder. So I open my mouth until my skins tears ever so slightly. When he is satisfied with looking at me like that. He makes a sound from deep down in his throat. And spits right into my mouth. I feel it in the back of my throat. I taste it on my tongue. He looks at me a little longer. Laying there with my mouth open looking into his eyes, with his spit in my mouth. He says, "What do you say, slut?" I answer "thank you, Sir." He closes the gate. I close my eyes. He walks away in silence. He turns out the light and closes the closet door. I can hear him when he sits on the bed and picks up his guitar. As he plays I wonder if he is singing me to sleep or just writing new songs? I know it's the latter. But I sleep like a baby anyway.


When I awake in the morning I wonder if it's too early for him. Is he awake yet, I wonder. probably not. It seemed he stayed up all night smoking and writing new songs. I lay very still and try not to wet the mat. It's very hard because I sort of have to pee. I weigh the thought in my head. If he is awake he will be in to wake me soon enough, giving me time to ask for permission to use the bathroom. If he is still sleeping, I'll have to deal with the consequence of wetting the mat. The last time I was in this very situation Sir told me if I could not control myself (which I can't) I would have to sleep on the wet mate for a few days, or sleep with no mat until I learned to control myself. I can't control myself so I close my eyes and return to sleep. I dream of his bed and how warm it would be if I were laying next to him. This leads to my regretting talking back three weeks ago, the action that lead me to sleeping in my Spacial Place...well in the first place. 


I hear his Blackberry buzz with a text message, maybe he is awake. I open my eyes with excitement. I can not hear him move. Does he respond to his phone? Did he even hear it? I hear him move on his bed. I turn over and start sucking my thumb to distract me from all of the excitement of Sir being definitely awake and my having to pee. Only it doesn't work and I feel the wet begin to leak out onto the mat. I try to go back to sleep, it's not like he ever wants to be bothered when he first wakes up. To my surprise he opens the closet door and turns on the light. Sir is so beautiful first thing in the morning. He is like some Satanic Angel with his clothes off like this. He looks sleepy as he runs his fingers through his short black hair. My eyes are not fully adjusted but his eyes are still the most beautiful sight I have seen in my lifetime. 


He kicks the cage with his foot a little. "Piggy, wake up I have a meeting this morning." I move around a bit so he can see that I am indeed awake without me having to take my thumb out of my mouth. It is now being sucked with anticipation. I don't want him to know that I have wet myself. Especially now knowing that he has this morning meeting. Meaning I will take extra time which is always frowned upon by Sir. Extra attention cleaning my mess. He picks out a suit and a Black London Fog Coat to match. "I'll be back to deal with you in a moment." Fuck, that means I have to lay here in my own mess until he is dressed. That should take about an hour. So I fall back to sleep. 


I'm awaken by his Black Doc Marten boot kicking the outside of the metal cage hard. "Pig, time to get the fuck up. We have twenty minutes to get you clean and dressed and down to the kitchen."  I'm awake all shocked from the cage rattling and the screaming. "I may need more time than that, Sir." I say to him. "Why, are you a little Pissy Pants again?" Fuck, why does he always know. "Yes, Sir" I answer already crying, like he gives a shit.  He gets down on his knees so he can look me right in the face. " No breakfast for you this morning and I'm going to have to start keeping you out in the backyard if you can't control yourself, Pissy Pants."  I look up at him still in tears.  He unlocks the cage and places a collar around my neck. He attaches a leash onto it. Takes me out of the cage and removes his plug. He then leads me out of the closet by my leash. I can see the frustration in his eyes as he looks at the wet mat. He begins to drag me across the floor to the bathroom. "Hurry the fuck up,  Pissy you only have twenty minutes. Are you fucking deaf?" He kicks me hard in the ass with his boot  in order to speed up the process of  me being dragged to the bathroom. 


It's still warm on the bathroom floor because of him steaming up the bathroom while he got ready. I lay on the floor strangely enjoying the warmth and the dryness. At this point he usually takes off my collar so I can shower and get dressed. This time he leaves me laying on the floor and begins filling the bathtub with water. Does he want me to bath in under twenty minutes? I wonder. After the tub is full he walks back over to me laying on the floor. He picks up my leash and pulls me up towards him. "Get up." I do as I am instructed and stand up as straight as I can. Bad posture is not allowed by Sir even in this circumstance. "I don't know if I can bath in under twenty minutes, Sir." I say to him. "Did I say you can make a fucking peep?" I shake my head no. He Begins to undo his cuff links, rolls up his sleeves and I can tell by the way he removes my collar and walks me over to the tube that he is going to bath me himself. This could prove to be a bit romantic. 


I get in the warm water. It feels so good since I was cold and wet half of the morning. He sits in a chair near the edge of the bathtub, gets a sponge and rubs my back and exposed chest. Then he gets it nice and wet and lets it drip over my head. This feels very nice and is going to take more than twenty minutes. I want to remind him that he said we only have twenty minutes. But I know better than to remind Sir of anything.  He begins to run his fingers through my hair gently kissing me on the forehead. I look into his beautiful eyes and smile. He smiles back and I think he mouths I love you. After which he grabs a hold of my hair tightly and proceeds to drown me forcefully in the tub. It is a full head and body dunking action that immediately takes my breath away. This is repeated over and over again for five minutes. I kick and scream and hit both my legs and elbows on the porcelain. I can hear him laughing as I come up a mere second for air. Up and down I go. The fucker is drowning me and he thinks it is funny. I'm not sure how much water I have snorted or swallowed and I know he does not care. For a minute I contemplate my own death. Am I stupid enough to let him drown me? Is Sir going to kill me like this? All of these thoughts go through my head for the next ten minutes. He holds me down under the water for what seems like a lifetime but is only two minutes. When he finally takes his hands off of my hair and face I sit upright in the tub and catch my breath. "All of that fucking splashing and you manged not to get me wet. Good Girl, because that would have landed you in the Gimp house unsupervised today." I bearly comprehend as I try to catch my breath. "Get dressed, you have ten minutes." He hands me a towel and walks out of the bathroom. 


I get dressed in the clothes he has laid out for me on his bed. A red baby doll dress, black and white striped tights, a black and white spiked collar, and White Doc martens. I make up the bed and go downstairs with one minute to spare. I see him check his phone laying on the kitchen table for the time. He does not tell me I did a good job getting cleaned and dressed in under twenty minutes. But he smiles so I know he is proud of me. He is at the table eating toast, fruit, and vegan pancakes he had his chef make for our breakfast. I sit down across from him at the table in front of my plate. It's a mirror of his meal. I am very hungry after the night of sex and punishment. Not to mention the bath he just gave me. Before I begin to eat. He reminds me because of my wetting the mat I will not be eating breakfast this morning. I smile and thank him. I drink some ice water while he finishes his breakfast. He reminds me to make sure the bathroom and bedroom are clean before he gets home this afternoon and to clean up my place in the closet. "Don't touch the mat in the cage. You are going to sleep on it again tonight, Pissy Pants. I have to train you like a little fucking dog I see." After he is done with breakfast we go into the living room so he can pick up his keys and coat. He gives me my instructions for the day. In addition to the upstairs rooms I'm to clean the kitchen and back patio. Take his suits to the dry-cleaner, clean all of the linen and not eat a single thing all day. "If I suspect you put anything in that filthy mouth of yours you will be punished...and I punish serverely. Do you understand?" I wonder if he would know if I just had a little something? Yes, I know he would so I answer with "yes, Sir." It's not like he can't tell if I am lying by looking right at me. He gives me a kiss and a pat on the ass and is out the front door. I go upstairs to begin my list of chores. 


I play his music loud as it can go to keep me company. The hard rock helps me get through the work faster.
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The Game We Play As We Die

Inside of me lies a Demon oh so strong

Able to conquer pains long gone

Inside my flesh lies an Angel 

Oh so mythical

Created by me oh so long ago

Inside me lies Human Muscle

Often overshadowed by ego or confusion 

My life is like a long driving trip

To nowhere yet it's so damn far away

What unexplained things will I see today

So much curiosity and monotony 

So much change and newness 

I complain about all that I love

I love all that bothers me

I could change it all with a thought

About what?

About words used in a fight for my life

A battle with time and thoughts

I dance with the sun and the moon

Why am I not very amused

Is this joy and contentment  

Is this peace

I feel so still like a dream

My hands are gentle as I brush the canvas

But for what

 Another trip around this Sun 

We try to change the day by changing our clothes 

By making new sounds

But is today tomorrow and yesterday still somehow

This is the game we play as we die

We pretend it's brand new 

And we just found out somehow

Inside my heart is a dying child

In my eyes a RiOt

Just dying to get out.

This is Josalisa, Live from Planet Girl On A Diet...also called Planet RiOt

Or So I Dream

I woke up angry from a dream, which is always funny to me. The fucking mind it blows mine. Our little human thoughts can put us into such an emotional state and it really is hard to control emotions. I mean I guess it gets easier but I always have to stop and remind myself to control myself. Dreams in which I get angry are a great reminder to watch what I am feeling. But it is dead hilarious to became pissed off because of something that only happened in my imagination. But isn't it all happening in my imagination. If I didn't have the training to recognize them, most things probably wouldn't affect me the way they do. But yeah that is a lesson in control for sure. Today I have a million errands to do and I am already not feeling it. So I'm going to get my mind right and get these few little things done. Since they are all for my benefit. I really don't have much to share today, yet here I am up early writing shit anyway. Okay I guess that is all let me think of a little poem to wrap this madness up nicely.  

Of A Women's Mind

In the labyrinth of my dreams I am queen but not in control

Do I time travel am I out too far

Because my mind gets away from me sometimes

Or so I dream 

I am clear in my imagination

As long as I remember my lessons

You see I want to live up to my full power this lifetime

How much time is that anyway

Just enough I guess

To catch up with my hidden desires 

That are not really hidden

They are jewels and like all treasure must be found

Somewhere deep down I understand all of this

Like solving a huge puzzle I long ago finished 

Life is just child's play but one can get caught up in a minute

The key is real freedom but most never find that

So the suffering is here

We can pick up on a wave of anything

I'm riding the vibration of joy and childlike wonder

It feels good like a soft blanket I'm under

Will I ever not be puzzled by my own thoughts/emotions

Maybe not but the key is to not get carried away

On an ocean of regret and neglect what is really here

I am dancing in the sea of tranquility

Penning a sweet soliloquy to strangers

In hopes that it all will became a most beautiful painting

Of a women's mind

This is Josalisa Live from Planet RiOt.

I Am Source Code

Life's little adventures are so small and happen so fast they seem unimportant. But aren't they? In a moment you can have a life-changing event. I mean one day you can view the world one way and then boom... it gets tuned upside down. And what you were before is no more. Doesn't that make ya smile? I feel such joy right now. My life hasn't changed or anything. I mean I am exactly the same, but it just feel real good. The Moon was full last night and yes I sang to it like a good Witch. But that is not really the point either. It just feel good right now. Like a Spring Morning or some shit. And I know I'm lucky to have figured that part out. Joy is always raining. Like a faithful Robot Companion it's just there all of the time. The calm is very welcomed. It makes me look at everything I've done so far and I really appreciate it. Every little song or photograph. I mean I'm out here fighting the good fight and making a real go at this life as an artist thing. We really are only what we create in this life. Not the interpretation which is often very funny if you ask me. I've been writing a lot of Erotica lately. Not the rub me love me down kind. But the Marquis De Sade let's have fun with a St. Andrew's Cross kind. Because...well...it's the best kind as far as I can tell. When I look back at these things which embarrass me terribly for no good reason at all. I really enjoy them and go out for a good laugh at myself. Because even though I think I'm uptight I really am not at all. I think I hide things but it's all right there in the open. The madness keeps me brave and strong. One can really change the world with creativity. But changing the world is just changing yourself now innit? I'm not changing the world or myself. I'm just living this life. It's not always clear or fun. But today it just is. Plain and simple it just fucking is. I'm still not satisfied that I have not left this city yet. But all in good time. Yes this place is groundhog day for me. But if I look slightly to the left and elevate my head just a bit. I can see the new day is coming. I'll get there soon. As for now, All Is Well. 

I Am Source Code

Inside I am source code

unflawed and weaponless

My number is perfect 

My mind's a secret weapon

All I am is silence

Inside of us all beats the heart of a giant

Life is our forest of wisdom

Like ancient man or divine science

The algorithmic is real

I am source code

I use my mind to heal

I believe in your dreams

Mine are all too real 

This is Josalisa live from Planet RiOt. 

It's Alright

This has been low-key one of the busiest weeks of the year. J.O. got two Awards for his artwork this week. It was very special and even though he is unaffected by his recognition I am majorly proud of him. And you know I don't like to be proud of things. I nearly cried at one of the ceremonies. Queen of Dorkville for that move no doubt. We went to a Fair as one of the forms of celebration. But you know that activity was way too basic for us, so we got out of there early. But it was a fun time anyway. This week has been a series of Award Ceremonies and celebrations of the classiest manner. It has been quite fun indeed. Besides all of that my mind has been rather calm due to it's working overtime no doubt. I haven't had any weird dreams that I can remember and I'm not very tired. I just feel happy I guess. It's nice to have a chance to really just sit back and enjoy one another. I guess life is running pretty smooth right now. Okay here is poem I guess:

I'm Just Free

In my heart I am free from my mental burdens

My imagination makes the world appear before me

I pick my experiences like fruit on a tree

At night I dream of the places I want to see

Far away and magical full of possibility

My skin is the brown of the Earth

My spirit is made of pure verse

I am not effected by envy

I have no known enemies

I'm just free

To walk and swim and read

I made it so 

It's a reward for the suffering

I see the beauty so clear

It's like a melody in my ear

I appreciate my understanding

I'm in love with the person standing next to me

Unbiased and unafraid we charge into the world

A bald man and a short cropped byrd

Created of our own universe

Free in our honesty

All people can see me and we can speak

But only a few will ever understand

Few will ever really listen

Still I'm on a mission to beauty

To joy and laughter

I'll enjoy the world and ask questions after

I've loved and allowed myself to be loved

It's a mess of epic proportion

But I've got the perfect dress for it

You see I woke up today and I just wanted to say

I'm just free

This is Josalisa in A Peace RiOt

This Is A Love Riot

I watched the entire This Is England Series. This includes a movie and two Miniseries. I watched it again yesterday the shit is hella heartwarming. It's a perfect interpretation of what it is like being in a counterculture relationship. I mean it's complex to be yourself and have your partner be himself in the face of adversity. Culturally and financially. The films made me happy to be in the relationship I'm in. It's a hard thing for a man to love a punk rock girl and vis a versa. I mean there is opposition. Everyone wants to be the same as everyone else. We think this makes us adults. Getting a mainstream job and dressing like a basic douche from the The Gap. If you really stand up for yourself you get shoved down a lot. And if you find a love that last it's really a struggle. But it's a beautiful thing. To fight for love to stand for something. Your whole life. I've been punk and half a Skinhead for my entire adult life and so has my partner. It's been a great adventure. But the hate is real. The pressure to change is there. But what do you change into? A drone, someone else? You can only really ever be you. To change for anyone is suicide. The series shows Woody trying to join the mainstream and it nearly killed him. As to be expected. It also showed Lol the female lead trying to hide her tortured past from her partner. Which nearly killed her as well. No matter what you have been through. The whole point of love is to get through your personal struggles together. Some struggles are impossible to face alone. Your partner is there as a second person in the battle for life. If you have lived through hell your partner is there to help you fight through it. That in some cases can be the most important part. If you are not willing to face the demons and show them to your partner and say help. You may not make it though your relationship. Hell, you may not make it through life in some cases. I really appreciate my love. It is real and I have fought for it. And it has been worth it. Fighting for the joy and the beauty. I don't think we will ever change. Growing up is not becoming some new person. It's accepting the person you are and standing up for it. It's not easy in any case but it is very rewarding. So if you are in love or looking for love. Know this, all you have to do is remain the person you are and allow the person you love to be who they are. No matter what. That is the only way. Be patient and even if you are in love with a wild punk rock motherfucker. Believe in him and allow him to believe in you. Stay true and don't lie to one another but most importantly don't lie to yourself. If you are trying to become someone else. Look inside yourself and ask why and what are you running from? I guess that's it. Never run from yourself. Face and embrace yourself. You may find that the most important treasures lay inside. And they are always rewarding. For all of eternity. If you have the nerves to be who you are and face yourself honestly. You will find are person who loves that in the truest form. And you will find that when you let go of all of the confusion from outside forces you can love someone for who they are. Alt-culture flaws and all. I love This Is England and I love my partner. We are in this together. And it's pretty alright...now itnit? 
This is Josalisa and I am in a Love RiOt.