Sunday, November 25, 2012

Blood and Cruelty. Part 7



"Do you know what to do with it?" yes I answer. "How many times have you come down here before?" I try to sounds as innocent as possible when I give my answer. "This is my first time. I just wanted to see her." He looks at me with a gaze implying he knows me better than I know myself. He adds, "and fuck her." In a matter of fact way. I say nothing. How he just states the natures of my sick and filthy desire, causes me to lower my eyes. What does he think of me? Are we both crazy? Has he completely possessed me with his darkness? The answer to the final question is yes. He has possessed me, I am his. I want to be more him, more mad, more free inside of my own mind. I walk over and lay down in the bed with him. He has carried the body over to the bed. The way he lays it down on the blankets, it's head on the pillow. It looks like it is sleeping. He even closes it's eyes. It's so lovely, I cuddle up close to it. I want to smell it's hair and taste it's skin again. Master walks into the bathroom. He is there for what seems like three minutes. I take the opportunity to kiss her lips again. It is so cold and beautiful. Truly an exquisite corpse. Mater created her, it's hard to imagine he didn't do it just for me. When Mater finally emerges out of the bathroom he has something I can not see in his hand. I don't really care what it is. He and it are coming over to get on the bed with us. I know this is going to be a really good time. 

Mater sits down on the edge of the bed. I stay laying down with my arms wrapped around it. She is so cold, but I still want to share her with Master. The way we should have shared her last night. But we couldn't because I was being punished, maybe I still am. He caresses the breast of his corpse, then strokes my hair. He then touches it down there. In her womb, cut too large by his knife, but bloodless because I licked it all off. "She is too cold inside." he tells me as he rubs his cold fingers over the corpse's vagina. Finally his hidden instrument is revealed. It is a metal curling iron. It is very hot. I know because he burns me on my leg with it. The burn almost immediately blisters. I try to move my legs but his strength overpowers my own as he holds my legs still with his free hand. I cry as my skin burns. Once he feels I have suffered enough, and understand the nature his instrument. He tells me it is good for me to have a new scar. My scars are what makes me beautiful, he reminds me. "I don't want to hear you crying, shut the fuck up!" I try to control my tears and whimpers. Master returns his attention to the corpse. "Do you want me to show you what to do? How to keep her warm inside?" I do, but I do not want to speak, he will hear my whimper. That will lead to a harsher punishment tonight. I take a deep breath, get my shit together and answer, "yes, Sir." That makes him smile. Then he shows me what he does with the dead girls and guys he keeps in here. 

He takes his instrument, still hot enough to severely burn skin. He runs it down the inner thigh of the corpse, takes his free hand and and opens up what remains of her labia majora. The hot instrument is inserted deep inside of it's womb. He sees the look of wonder in my eyes. "This helps them to stay warm inside." Master removes his clothes and gives me a wink. I think he is happy to be sharing this other part of himself with me. With his ample member in his hand, he removes the hot curling iron and replaces it with himself. For twenty minutes he takes the dead girl in this manner. While I watch and learn what pleasures Master. When he is done with it, he kisses me and says, "Do you get it? Now it's your turn. She is still warm, sweetheart." I wonder how many times he has done this with the dead girls he keeps? How many dead guys has he kept? It would be impossible for me to imagine this is his first time. Master has been fucking the dead for a very long while. Storing them in the basement after starving them or chocking them to death, or like this one, after stabbing them to death. He keeps the bodies, makes sure the most important parts are warm, then gives them the pleasure only a lucky few ever have. Master is perfect. beautiful, and wicked. He lays next to the corpse, as I take my turn with her still warm body. 

When awake after hours he is gone. I am still laying, cuddled with the corpse. I get out of bed to makes sure it is all under the covers and the blanket.  I place it's head in the most comfortable position on the pillow. I put my clothes back on, including pig snot and head back into the main house to take a bath. Master will return soon and I need to have all of the housework done, including making dinner before he gets home. After I get out of the bath I find a note on the dresser from Master. It reads as follows:

 Necro-Slut,

You are to be clean, have all of the laundry done, and your filthy caged must be cleaned out. If I smell you in my closet, you are going to regret it. More than you ever can imagine. The chef will make my dinner. You will have three crackers, one apple, and one cup of water. Do not go into the guest house again today.

                                                                                                                                  -J


...to be continued. 

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

This I know (another dream)



Last night in a dream I learned a new truth. People love their misery, I think it makes them feel brave. Like, look at me I have survived something. But have you survived really waddling in that filthy dream? We all know sadness and heartbreak. We all carry the burden of the lonely. Yet some of us wave it like a freedom flag. For what? They love the misery and the sympathy it calls for. I survive the sadness daily and I don't really give a fuck. I'm not a pull yourself up by your bootstraps blue collar American or anything. But what the fuck is our deal anyway? Ever showed loved to the guilty and wicked and watched them turn against you? Ever pointed out beauty to these people and have them turn it into shit? Yes you have. That is because many love it in the darkness. No, they are not there to shine the light, they are there to waddle in it. This is what I saw in a dream. We are all vibrating into this Holographic existence  Projecting and attracting. Have you ever noticed what some people attract? A load of nothing too special is what it is. Their is a reason for that. I am not here to save this world. It feels good to think that. I am here to save you all from the darkness in which you dwell. But that is not why I have arrived. I am just an observer  I have my opinion. I have written it down. But really so what? I am here as a creator. Not a fucking beggar or a whiner  I see you fuckers down on your knees to anyone. A person you lust for, your sick twisted family, strangers with candy. Get the fuck up suckas and breath. This is a wicked world we live and it it's cruel. But it still belongs to us. The ones who have survived. Yesterday we lost a lot of humans and animals. They all died of natural causes. Not us though. We are the ones who made it. For whom the fucking bell tolls. 

I see the pigs waddling in the misery and yes you fuckers look like pigs or scared children. I fucking hate it, but I still love all of you. We are all a fucking dream. Creating this world one thought or action at a time. Can you fuckers not see that? Look around you. Does your life suck? Really? Are you absolutely sure it is really bad? Good. You made it that way. Your life is a fucking painting and you have the brush in your hand still. I look to the darkness I have created in my own life and I laugh. Because if I look back or do the math I can see how I wanted this life. I asked for it, dreamed of it and made it come true. I want other things now and the thought of not having them drives me to sorrow. But that is the work we do. Look around you. This is YOUR life. You are not a dead leaf blowing in the wind. You are Homosapien. You have the power to be what you dream. So stop dreaming up all of this weak bullshit and  do some real work. Dream fucking big then risk everything to get it. If you do not do this now you will be a little baby forever. A little sad baby until you leave this plane. There are Human Beings right now flying all over this world. And I am not flying. I am singing  and writing and creating sounds with my mind and hands. This is the source of my own sorrow. I want to leave, but instead I stay here and create. This is really the thing that causes my heart to hurt. The fact that I create instead of fly. What the fuck. That is not at all that bad. Especially when I look around me and see so many people just taking from the world. Never adding shit. Never offering anything of substance to anyone. Not even the ones they really love. Their are people alive today who will not make anything in this cycle. They will cry, they will attempt to assassinate others, they will attempt to kill themselves. But on this day. Nothing new will come from their cold dead hands  THAT is the source of misery. Blow a fucking horn or hug something innocent. Then you will see. You life is in your hands, dude. My life is in my hands. It makes me cry, but it mostly makes me smile. The shit is all right. I have space to breath. To shout, to make love. Yes I could kill the ones who do not think like me. But who are they? Just another part of me, right? So why really worry. All that is mine, I have today. All that I desire is on it's way. 

I have danced, I have sang, I have shouted, and been put down. Yet fuck, man. I am truly happy. I feel the joy wash over me. I love the existence I have come to create. The shit is all right. If I really look around. I can smile at all of my silly drawings. Because I have created them. I think so much of the misery I see American people in is because the fucks lack the sense to risk it all to create. I have been through some crazy shit this year. Some real proper crazy shit. And through it all I made sounds and art. So fuck the dumb shit. All is fucking well. As it has been, and shall remain. I've done fuck all to deserve the pain. And maybe you have. Maybe you deserve the misery in which you live. You horrible fucked up ones. I see you. You motherfuckers do some real wicked shit. If wicked shit were real. Which it is not. All of this is prospective. I embarrass myself often putting my shit our here for the digital masses. My friends ignore me, and strangers embrace me. It is the way of the world for me. I believe in my Guru and I believe in myself. Not despite it all, but because of it all. Because I see you dying, I see you getting what you deserve in this world. Then you cry and say you did not deserve it. Yes you fucking do. You did it to yourself. I did this to myself. I locked myself away from most people and became a fucking hermit. So I can write and read and create in peace. I made this reality. I want more now, but I have to really face what I have already created. And so do you, dear reader. Face your little bullshit, then kill it. Or not. I don't fucking know. All I really know comes from math, and dreams. I am my own dream come true. What have you done to yourselves, dear friends? Because in all honestly I do not recognize most of you anymore. 

This is Josalisa...Live From Planet RiOt.

I don't understand much, but this I know.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Blood And Cruelty...Part 6 of this Fan Fiction Situation.



He is cold at night and the bed is dry next to him. I'm sure it is all of the blood, but what of his coldness? This is the first night in months he has actually allowed me to sleep next to him. I know it is in order to purify me in this dead Woman's blood, but it is all so satisfying. Like we have become one. I have become united with his deed. Embracing his need to torture to no end, he has a desire to change the color and shape of flesh, to warp the human experience. Is he bored, is he mad, is he doing all of this to teach me a lesson, as a warning to me? I can not help but wonder if he kills them every time, even when he is not home with me. Or does he kill them just for me. I forgot to clean the kitchen, well here is a new body. I didn't get to the store in time, that's fine we will torture the next one together. I've never really seen him put a person to sleep. He stabbed the last one to death. He needed the blood, we both did I guess. I was really starting to miss sleeping next to him. He can not sleep next to me unless he has a lesson to teach. Sleeping in the blood teaches patience and silence. It offers stillness of heart and a oneness with the memory. I now she had to have enjoyed his knife somewhere near the end of her life. As she was spilling out she had to be somewhat thankful for it. It's not like he offers his gift to everyone. Most people don't even know he does this. His hair smells like shampoo and blood. I gently reach out to touch it. I can't see his face in the darkness, but I look at him anyway. His jawline can be made out in the shadows. He is gorgeous  Not just because he is psychically perfect. He is that but he is also capable of executing his well on any living being. He really is a true Master. A genius in the mind and the flesh. Men like him don't suffer the way I suffer. All the remorse and guilt, Regretting every step, wondering if I could be wrong. He knows he is not wrong, and if he is so what. No one is ever going to stop him. 

We can not be saved from Master's will. His mind is stronger than most other human's we meet. He brings most of them to their knees with their lust for his beauty  He awes them with his mind. 158 IQ and can you imagine how boring most people are to him? That is why he kills them. It is why I have decided to dedicate my life to him and assist him in his task. He does not need me. I need him, to be useful to him is my only desire in this world now. But why would he really need me? I guess I am his true companion. We are equally matched in beauty and intelligence. We both understand how to mold minds and control the weaker masses. But he is my Master and I am here to serve him, not to be his real companion  We are separate but equal. Not tonight. Tonight we are one with the flesh  Our own and this dead girl's he has freed. Bound by the blood and the love. As he turns over in the blood soaked bed, I do so as well. He reaching over to hold me and say, "I love you, Pet. I know I get carried away, but I just want to show you how much I love you." He kisses the back of my neck, I close my eyes and we our both are asleep again in moments. We sleep the peaceful sleep of people who have true freedom. 

His phones buzzes at 7am. He looks at it and messages someone back. He sees I am awake next to him. "I have another meeting this morning" he says to me. "I need you to get the room together while I get dressed". He strokes my blood socked hair and smiles at me. For the first time I can see his face is soaked in blood and he looks beautiful. Almost like flesh that walks and talks, not just flesh, muscle tissue. Maybe I look the same because he laughs at me and says "seeing you like this makes me want to skin the next one". I laugh and tell him I will follow my instruction immediately. He gets up to walk over to the bathroom, he is completely covered in blood. Like a demon reborn into human flesh he walks across the floor leaving no trail though it looks like he should. I lay here for a moment and wish I had his strength. Then I realize my strength is my surrender to him. So I get up and start to take the sheets off of the bed. I am hysterical with laughter so I walk over to the stereo and put on some Led Zeppelin to help me enjoy the task a bit more. What the fuck did he do with the body? I want to ask him, but I know it is best for me to just get the linen downstairs and out to the bungalow for washing. When I open the back door and the sun hits my naked, blood socked body I want to dance. I really feel that free. The grass is cold and fresh on my feet. I am cover in blood and freedom and I just want to run around like this all day. Once I get everything into the laundry and return back to the main house and his bedroom he has showered and is looking through his closet. He chooses clothes for both of us. "You look like some kind of tiny warrior, you dumb fuck. Why are you so happy this morning?" He says to me. I just smile and answer. "I liked doing that". He gives me this knowing look then turns around and walks into the closet. I hear him say. "pig, you have five minutes to get clean, so fucking hurry up. Meet me downstairs after. Before you get dressed, I want to make sure you are perfectly clean." Five minutes to get all of the blood out of my hair. I kind of panic but I know he is perfect with time and the five minutes does not include getting downstairs and it starts now so I don't even dream of complaining. I just run to the shower. 

It takes me four minutes to clean myself and get dry. On the bed Master has my clothes laid out for the day. I glace over to see they are mostly black but I have only one minute to get downstairs for inspection so I don't even walk over to them. When I get down to the kitchen Master is already eating his breakfast. His chef looks at the state I am in and leaves the kitchen. I walk over to Master and he looks up from his meal. He is eating oatmeal with fresh apples, and melon on the side. As he looks me over he checks his watch. He says, "Turn around." I do as I am told and let him inspect me from the back. "let me see your hair." I shake my air out, it is wet but their is no blood. I hope he can tell. "Go back upstairs and clean the bathroom and make sure you clean out your cage. You can have one piece of toast and and one slice of melon for breakfast." That is all he says and he goes back to eating. I take his lowing his head to read his paper as a sign for me to start getting dressed. I say "Thank you, Sir." and turn around to run back upstairs. 

The only thing that comes to mind is I hope he will still be home after I finish all of this. I want him to see me in my clothes and tell me I look wonderful. I head into the bathroom and start cleaning out the shower and making sure I have all the bloody towels ready to be tossed. I'm not sure why he does not burn all of the bloody things. I wonder if he ever worries about being caught? What would people say about us, if they knew what he was doing to me and what we are doing to other people? I know our neighbors think we are a weird rock n roll couple and it is clear where all of his money comes from. One scandal and his career could be over. Yet he does not seem to even care that he has all of these dead women in the basement of the guesthouse or that I will be just tossing theses bloody towels out into the garbage cans. I'm not sure what he did with her body. I'm not even sure the others are in their. I just feel like she may be. They all may be. Some of them were in the past. Hidden away in the guesthouse  His discarded pets. Or the guys he tortures so bad they can not be seen by anyone but the two of us. I know he keeps reminding me that our lifestyle is not wrong and he is only exorcising true freedom. But just for the time it take to gather the towels I worry for us. After I get rid of everything and get dressed in what he finds appropriate for a women in my station. Black fishnets, black and grey leopard print mini skirt and a black Nirvana baby doll tee shirt. And of course my little pig snot which I guess he thinks I deserve for all of my pissing in the cage. No underwear but he did lay out a little black spiked choker, which really fucking chocks I might add. So public humiliation and no breathing is the order of the day. I notice he did not include shoes. Meaning no shoes for today. Fuck I hate walking around with no shoes. He knows this and plus it is very cold outside. Once I am fully dressed I hear his car pull out of the driveway. He did not even care to check on me one last time. I know he will be gone for the remainder of the day and I don't really have anything to do outside other than to go shopping. I don't want to waste any time today. I am going to the basement of the guesthouse because I want to see the girl from last night. I want to see her face. I want to know if she is pretty or ugly, old or young. I want to know what her remains look like. 

I run out to the guesthouse, as I open the door I wonder why he never locks it. I mean does he not think the Gardner or anyone will ever just peek in here. What if someone did and they found everything? I mean I know he told the maid to never go into his basement and the way he looks at her when he gives orders I know she knows better than to ever go in there. But what if she did? She would see what I see. As I open the door I can feel the cold of the place. It stays dark in here, even with the lights on it is dark. He has a bed in one corner next to two empty cages. The guy he has in the bed. Some blonde mohawked punk boy he keeps for whatever reason. He says it is to starve him to death, and by the looks of him. The guy should be dead already. As I walk passed him tied to the bed post by rope warped around all four limbs. I wonder how long it will take him to die. Master has the timing all calculated. I hear the guy say something to me as I walk by. Maybe he asked for water. But I know better than to feed the toys Master keeps down here, so I just ignore his cries. I walk over to the corner of the room where there is a second little door. The girls are in there. The guys are on the other side, But I am looking for the girl  The one from last night. The one who recognized him immediately  As I open the door I see her. She is laying on top of the other two from last week. The perky blond and the bald black girl with the face tattoos. Funny he decided to kill her, I thought he would keep her much longer. I pull the girl's body out and she is very heavy  Her skin is pail as fuck and her eyes are still open. They are really beautiful, just like the rest of her. Too bad she could not stop screaming. Not that he was going to keep her, she was my punishment for wetting myself. I pull her out to the middle of the floor. She is tall. 5'9 I guess. Her boobs were not real and her hair still smells good. She has a great mouth. Very small with nice thick lips. I want to touch her fake boobs so I do. They feel like water balloons  Her body is so smooth. I get on my knees next to the corpse and imagine I was a beautiful as she is. In death beauty is trapped forever. I can still smell her breath. I touch her legs and she is extremely cold and lovely looking. Like a vampire. I kiss her lips. They feel like she kisses me back.  I go further down to look to see what he did to her womb. It is swollen, bloody and the flesh is all ripped out. Her outer labia, or labia majora is still in tact. So I begin to make love to her. The way he never would. He used a knife on her. I would never treat something so beautiful that way. I use my lips and we, me and this beautiful dead girl make the love she was dreaming of when she looked into his blue eyes last night. She taste like blood and him. I hear the guy in the corner start to cry. I stay with this dead woman for the next two hours. 

I must have fallen asleep because I never heard Master open the basement door. I never heard him come in. All I remember is when I wake up,laying on the floor next to the girl I see Master talking to the guy tied to  the bed. His name is Douglas and Master is asking him if he is ready to die. He is so gentle with him, starving him to death because he just wants to share himself this way with Douglas. When I see Master, finally I understand I have made a big mistake and I will have to explain myself to him. I get up, and try to explain. But he just keeps talking to Douglas. "You look so amazing Douglas, you know you where a fucking fat pig before I meet you." Douglas just cries and I am a bit jealous of him. Why is Master so nice to him anyway? "You have lost so much weight, I am proud of you." He kissed him. "You are hanging in there quite nice, sweetheart." He finally looks over at me. "So this is what you do when I am not home?" he asks. I explain I don't do this all of the time and I just wanted to know what she looked like. He looks at me and the dead girl on the floor. He ask me. "So what does she look like?" I look up at him. I get off of the floor and sit next to him on the bed where Douglas is bound. "Like heaven" I and answer. "How does she taste?" I look deep into his eyes and answer. "Like maggots,Sir."He laughs and we spit on Douglas. I do this because my mouth taste weird, Master does it because it is just what he does. He ask me finally,  "Do you want to keep it?" I am a bit shocked by the question, but even more shocked by the answer  "Yes." He looks at me and says  Yes, what?." I smile because I believe I am going to get what I want. "Yes, Sir,"

We leave Douglas where he belongs and Master carries it out of the basement to the guesthouse proper for me. He explain that we can not keep her long, but since I have been doing my best to behave like a good pet, I could have one of my own. I can not believe this. I have never had my own pet and she is so lovely. I just imagine myself  cleaning it up and combing it's hair. This is going to be a dream come true. My Master is so kind when I do the right thing. I think he is proud of me for not being weak and secretly feeding Douglas. He lets me know that we will have to keep her warm inside to have the most fun with the flesh. I can tell he has done this before but it is new to me so I pay close attention. He even tells me he feels a bit sorry for ripping her up so bad. Now that he sees she can be useful to us still. 

Saturday, September 15, 2012

The Difference Between Dying and Knowing Everything



What the difference between dying and knowing everything
To gain any real knowledge you have to confer with the dead
That's a fact through entities or books
Shadows most be consulted
As if dying before a Great King
What's the difference between dying and knowing everything
Mathematics is the key to our existence
Yet to master it takes years of silence and contemplation
Nailing yourself into the proverbial intellectual coffin
I speak to the living quite often
You all are very smart 
Shame the dumb seems to go so hard
What's the difference between knowing everything and dying
Has an disembodied Energy every tried to paint
Could Necromancy work in giving a hand to a perfect rock band
What if Death was really your co-pilot
Has an Entity every reveled to you your life long enemies
Or is that just me I mean
What's the difference between being dead and knowing everything
I want to take a look back at 10500BC
I want to see the Orion Correlation 
I want to peep into the future
I use a foggy little ball or a bowl of water
Balance this out with metal from a Quarter
2023 I want to see The True Singularity 
I turn a card for fate or understanding
Magik, Science, Mathematics, and Archaeology
I study the dead so you don't have to
Maybe just sit back and watch a movie
Because truly
What's the diffrecne between dying and knowing everything 
1 8 3 5 14 16
That's the number of our unity

 This is Joasalisa in a RiOt as The Entity 


Friday, August 31, 2012


This is a poem to my sleep
I feel you coming and it's welcoming
Engulfing my body with the soothing hum of..
The stuff I dream of 
Drifting to the soft spot in my brain
Where rest lives and realization hangs around
My imagination in my playground
Especially subconsciously
Dear sleep comfort me
As my room watching over me
Moments away from the death like quiet
Praying for my friends and family
As I lay me down to sleep
I pray the lord my soul to keep
Or guide or borrow
Should our souls really be given away night after night
It's over 
This poem 
My music box lullabies
It's as they say 
That time
To not just unwind but incubate
My life my independent thoughts
Moments away from that place we all go
But few seem to ever remember
I feel you coming and it's welcoming
This is a poem to my sleep

Goodnight...Josalisa in a drowsy RiOt.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Outside Of The Dream

You will never be the one who satisfies me
Will I ever be the person who wakes me
The Magik is working so I will be gone soon
Into the arms of the great madness
Love is a distraction from our sorrow
I never got side tracked by that
Oh how I tried to die in the arms of another
But the music wakes me and takes me from under the covers
Into the coldness of my being
Covered in bugs and the filter of drugs
Trying to pretend I'm dizzy or just too busy to see
The me that is still alive inside here somewhere
Will I ever be the person who wakes me
You see the bitch won't shut up
Another poem another song another unfinished painting
I hate the world and love my dreams
I only want to see the people who live inside me
Alive and free like a bum with a drum
Women are so pretty and young
Some of us have found ourselves intelligent and curious 
You followed me to the end of the world to tell my story
I've always thought yours was quite boring
Especially now that I've decided to worship the Golden Cow
Soon I'll be gone
Lost to all those who think they know my story
I'm wild as the constellations 
As peaceful as meditation 
As the night turns to day
Will I ever have the skill to live how I feel
To reveal my great truths in a poem
In this world we are all married
Daughter's of the Stars which seem so far
Most dream this is the ending
Who ever gets so lucky they see the pain they live in die
I want to disconnect from the love I know
Like some romantic suicide
This couldn't be right
Besides who's ever meet a Prince that's Charming

Live from planet Riot...I do this as you lay dreaming.






Saturday, July 21, 2012

Once Upon A Dream In The Distance

I blew into life this dream
Somewhere far away in the distance
The Fairies listen to me
All is reality alive in the moment
A glace upon a screen
A glowing flowing stream of nonresistance
I blew away and the Universe listened
Once upon a dream in the distance
I held it all in my hands so tight
It flew away and became pastel colors
Digital thoughts code and numbers
But oh so alive up under
The lightening and thunder have come to free me
Once upon a dream in the distance
Oh so long ago before I came here
On this Intergalactic mission
I blew a dream into life
That life is my current existence 
Close your eyes when you hear me
Use your heart to listen 

A Girl...A RiOt...A RiOt A Girl...A Girl In A RiOt