This night will be magic. I will enjoy it and I will have fun and be love of love and for love. No matter what. I love you.

Some Dead Hacker's Metropolitan Blues

I was afraid and got healed by the robots

Oh how the Robots caress my soul

I was nursing wombs...well here are the robots

The reminders of all our dreams come true

Deep in the forest decays a robot

Captured by thoughts long ago

Now only dark truth

I was running in the night

To the lights of the robots

Codes like new notes sang out loud

I was in the box and in the cloud was a robot

The kind that makes you wish for something new

I made a sound and the sound came from a robot

We all called it the Hackers blues

I used my mind efficient like a robot

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I freed my mind and replaced it with a robot

Only cosmonauts know my blues

I saw the sky in the land of the robots

Costly ideas numbers and buildings 

Feeding our children food made by robots

This is the metropolitan blues

We mowed our lawns and replaced grass with robots

The whole world is a fucking tool

But you all knew that already

Didn't you?

I study science and the world is a robot

Abandoned then reused

Nothing last forever but the hearts of the robots

One day we will all swim in them like digital swimming pools

Josalisa had a dream about a RiOt lead by robots

But that's just some dead hacker's Metropolitan blues

Annoyed For No Good Reason

Okay, so I'm weirdly depressed. Maybe I can figure this all out in one blog post. I'm somewhat annoyed at the fact that I don't really have anything I want to eat in the house. I went shopping twice this week and I'm still not happy. I want hot chocolate right now but I don't have any. I could drink coffee but it's not the same, now is it? I'm cold for no good reason. I'm under a blanket in my room cold. That pisses me off. I wanted crackers but I didn't buy any. My Mom had to buy Ritz from Big Lots to save a dollar. Those shits are stale as hell and that pisses me off. I just feel so unsatisfied right now. I want to snack on something. I have pasta I made yesterday. Ravioli with four cheeses. It was good. But it's not what I want. Dude, I got a lot of First World Problems. But they really are annoying to me. Everything is just getting on my nerves right now. Dang I wish I had some hot chocolate. I am not going back to the grocery store right now. But man, what a bummer. This blog post is making me feel worst. I can't figure out what is in my vibration that is making feel so funky. And is that my throat trying to hurt, or is that a stale ass cracker in there? I wonder if tea will make me feel better. Know this blogerspher. I am just not happy right now. I think I should just turn off my music. Memory Tapes if anyone is asking. And just watch some tv. I may be too much in my head. This blog post was pointless. But...maybe they all all. Fucking mind. I need to go watch Star Wars in 3D but I'm far too lazy for that now. Also my Mom's nurse is here. I can't believe my Mom has a nurse, what kind of life am I'm living? Having elderly parents is like the most depressing thing ever. You just somehow think your parents are going to live healthy and happy forever. It's just a real bummer to think my Mom has a in-home nurse now. And it's me part time, which is even more bizarre than the stranger currently in my living room. I need a vacation. I've been on two in town staycations in two months. They help but I need to go further and for a longer period of time. My life is overwhelming and I don't even have space in my brain to complain about it. I am very unsatisfied right now. So tea which is not hot chocolate and a nice black and white film. Lets see how long I can stand that. The dumbest part about all of this and that it's just PMS. This is just a PMS rant. I wish I was above it. It gets to me every time. Also in the interest of full disclosure I ate two bags or Pop Chips in an hour yesterday.

I am So Pretty...Because I Bought That.

Forced to cover our faces with a products that at one time burned the skin off of rabbits and monkeys.
And for what? A Corporation's standard of beauty. Are we feminine enough for Maybelline? Maybe she's born with it. Or maybe we will make sure she has it. Low self esteem. The ugly factor. Similar to the Max Factor, but with brighter colors. When did they convince us we looked unbearable? I mean we are a nation of men with hair on their faces and women covered in corporate chemicals. To look beautiful. Like a sunset? Like the projects at night? Like a animal caged and tied down to a chair? Let's apply mascara, blush, and a little Whale blubber for your  lips. Lets see how long it takes to bleed through your skin and muscle tissue. Two weeks on an animal, one night on an ugly girl. It was so worth it. Now we can all be as beautiful as an image on the screen, or in a magazine. My head is so lovely. Just like this decapitated one on Vogue. So fucking beautiful, now I make the boys vomit. Can any of us accept how the skin is wrapped around our skeletons? What is make-up? An art form? A torture chamber? Just painted faces? A mask of consumerism? Beauty?  Just fun? Will there ever come a point in human history where it is not designed? A lot of animal testing was put to an end this year? But not the kind they do on little girls and women. We still are lab tested. Sprayed on. Polished. Covered in chemicals you are so fucking beautiful. Especially if you break your nose bone and have it restructured. If you cut your skin and have it pulled a little tighter. Then sewn back up. You may be a little better to see. So much fucking unbearable beauty. Just like in the movies. 


I am Josalisa RiOt. I have been on a diet since 1998, and I am still fat. In my mind, where it really matters. I've stopped wearing make - up again. The animals are here to remind me that this is all a test. No product can make me look better. Fake plastic digital world. Where all the boys are girls, and all the girls get placed inside of corporate sponsored coffins. You are ugly. Our products can help. Accept the fact that to them, we are a bunch of fucking lab rats.  A lot of very beautiful caged monkeys. But one day....there shall be a RiOt.

It Felt Like A Kiss

It's dangerous inside my thighs

It's where most girls hide their pride

I have mine in my eyes

It's dark inside my heart

I keep all the monsters there

Coarse like hair

While being chocked I struggle for air

It's hard inside his legs

The pain comes from the spread

The separation to from the things I touch

It's a smile space

To stretch to lick to touch

It's rough beside his hands

It's nice to be constrained 

The sting of my arm bands

It's burns across my back

Like a warm fire in my soul

I'll die before I'm old

It's warm inside my eye

Swollen from being poked numerous times

It hurts in the places they touch

They make me whimper and scream

Leaving traces as they stroke

Like prints on a screen

I cry because I want more

The metal feels like heaven

Things that pain you make me purr

It's late when I lay beside them

Reaching for his hand in the darkness

Changing shapes and then returning to my natural form

To take the shape of the other one

A deadly element

Josalisa's poetic lament.

A RiOt for the Sadomasochist.

I Have No Information

Dark on the inside

Heavy on the out

This is my landslide

I see inside of you

Stars on the the inside

Magic on the outside

Vibrating creation

I'll conquer over you

Calm on the inside 

Pain on the outside

I dream riddles at night

By day I solve them for you

Tragic on the inside

Dying on the outside

This is my blanket

A cloud over you

Moving on the inside

Steal on the outside

Words are my insight

Girl on the inside

RiOt on the outside

I eat less everyday

I replaced violence with food

Pain on the inside 

Pain on the outside

This is my landslide

The music's the truth

This is my insight 

This is my insight

Breathing Life Into My Death

All that is holy now 

All that is love see me 

All that is free join me

                                    I am that which never ends                                                              

All that is spirit seek me

All that is fortitude is planted in me

I am the living planet

All that is beauty breath with me

All that is patience move with me

All that is heart understand me

I am dignity come dance with me

All that is connected work with me

All that is rightoussness smile with me

All that is joy come into me

I am true love here for eternity

All that is knowledge free me

All that is consciousnesses feel me

I am death please come join me

All that's darkness know me

All that's light come into me

All that's brave shield me

I am gentle fragile as glass

All that is simple shall pass

All that is lost has not gone

All that I am is here today

I am the entity here for the singularity

All that is mathematics is within

All that is metal is alive

I am sand forming footprints until I close my eyes.

I am the Real Lady Die.

Only that which I see can touch me.

Only that which I think can form me.

I am that which is living and dying

I am heaven and hell

Can't you tell

This is the madness of Josalisa and this is a spiritual RiOt