Friday, January 30, 2009

The Reader

This is not a movie review. I never know what an artist intentions are.
None of us do really. Not even the artist. This is just what was inspired in my mind at the conclusion of the film.

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Dreaming & Sickness.

I read somewhere that being sick is God trying to communicate with you in a personal way. Like making you take time off for a one on one with the universe.
I kept this with me because it made me not feel so sad about being sick. So instead of me getting all frustrated, and missing the things I would naturally be doing if not for the illness. I just meditated and listen for the sound of God. I learn a lot of things in sickness now. It makes sickness more like a dream, than a time of headache, and fever, and the smell of vicks vapor rub. I know someone my reply that this may not be true for the chronically, or terminally ill. To you I say this is not about illness, it's about The Reader.

The boy being sick in the movie lead him to his fate. So maybe the sickness was a gift. Something that took him out of his natural element, and into the arms of the person who would change him. And whose life he would change.


Silence

It's a strange thing. Not the silence of the night, or the silence of the mind. But the silence of people. Those who refuse to speck, or that will keep a secret for ever. I have to say I find these types admirable, only because I myself have to by my true nature say everything. I often wonder what gives a person the will to hold in certain things till their death? And if this act is an act of strength, or weakness?


Knowledge

This film is a testament to it's power. The character Hannah had no knowledge of certain things. Due to negligence by others, or her own disinterest I know not. But the fact still remains the same. Having access to this information impacted the woman's entire life. Would access to this information have saved her life, intern saving the life of hundreds of others? And what does this say about our role as individuals in a society? Is knowledge a thing of privilege, as it is played out in our modern theater? Or is it desperately essential to or survival as humans, and in some cases to the survival of animals? Is the sharing of information vital to our survival as a culture? Could lack of it lead to a holocaust? What does this mean I should do with the limited amount of information I hold?

Love

Can it be measured, or judged. And is every human encounter something bigger. I mean can the person working at the check out counter, or someone you meet by chance be a major part of ones life journey. And what does this say about relationships, or life in general. Should we be looking for something deeper in every moment of the day? Is every so called casual encounter an act of love? Even the negative ones. It could be that they are love unexpressed, or misinterpreted.

Books

Only here to say this. They have saved me in this world, and made me what I am today. A nobody with a simple dream. To know what it is you are trying to say in this world. By you, I mean we. By we, I mean people on this planet. All the people. Sometimes when I go into a new place( like someone's home, or a bookstore), and I see a very large amount of books it just brings me to tears. And this movie helped me to understand why. There is so much to say in this world... So much to say. As a side note. J.D. Salinger I fucking miss you, and I wish you would write another book.

The Nazis

All I can say about the Nazis is, they where people. And this world is crazy.

Before it was a movie

It was a book written by Bernhard Schlink. We often forget writers when we see movies of their work. This is him.
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Anyway I have more to say. But I don't feel like saying it right now so that's that.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

The Muppets

I don't believe in politics.
I don't believe in Barak Obama.
I don't believe in any politicians.
I watch the muppets.

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That's right.
I do not carry signs.
I don't sign petitions.
I watch Pigs In Space.

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And it's peaceful world.
Politics is a shameful, and dirty game.
Full of lies, and warmongers.
The Muppets have live shows with Elton John.
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Politicians don't care who they kill.
The Muppets ain't with that.
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The Muppets are peaceful.
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And some of them are furry.
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So I'm with The Muppets.
Kermit The Frog for 2009.
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I like him best because he is not running for anything.

And for the people who think this is ignorant, and insensitive.
Maybe you should watch the Muppets.

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Tuesday, January 27, 2009

This is a Manifestation

I'm been offered a job that will start on February 8th.
And I'm getting it.
There will be no obstacle.
I am an artist, and a writer by God's will.
However I'm starving out here, and I've been all but blacklisted from mainstream America for the last two years.
So I'm calling all Angels.
Let the poverty end.
This is the thing for me.
I know I have a dream and it is coming through.
However a sista needs to eat.
So people of the Ether.
This is real.
And I'm putting it out there.
This job is mine.


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Sunday, January 18, 2009

Something or Rather

I have disappointed friends today. I feel like I often disappoint, there is always someone to offend. I myself are rarely offended by anything. Yet I deeply understand the sentiment. I planned to change somethings this year, but so far things have remained virtually unchanged. I'm still living in the same life situations, and doing things to make them different seem useless. Like I feel as if I'm not on the right track to my true future. But every time I make an effort to get on another direction things stay the same. Like the blandness is holding on for dear God. And you know maybe I've been on the right track all along. And where I am is where I need to be, so maybe I should look around a little more.


Sometime there is this

writing keeps me isolated
or is that just me
my thought keep me in a sort of forced solitude
or is that my dreams

mmmm

So today was a day of job interview type things. I always think these things go awful. But who knows maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought. I really believe that people in the valley think I'm unemployable. I might just be too much of a weirdo. You know "too punk for metal, too metal for punk." But we shall see my friends.

The super good news of the day is, on the way back for the job adventure. I came upon a yard sale,and they had a bunch of books. FOR FREE!! So I got a bunch of Maya Angelou, Gabriel Garcia Marquez, and other fun stuff like that. And of course you know that made my day.

And I had a dream last night that I was reading "100 years of Solitude" and I got a copy of that at the yard sale today. So we'll have to see what kind of little messages I find in these found jewels.

Most of the time I feel like Camus' stranger, or a character out of a Dostoyevski novel. You know completely on an isolated island of the mind, yet living among the others in a constant sort of detachment.

Here's a poem:



Words mean more to me than personal contact
does that make me too distant
and how far away am I really
could you touch me with a cloud
I feel above the world looking down
and I am comfortable with my wings
I live lovely in my dreams
in a room filled with music and books
my life is lived in a journal
my closest friend is a turtle
until my destiny is complete
I am a hermit with a smile
and of course mad style

Saturday, January 17, 2009

A Working Class Hero?

So tomorrow I am going to go check out a place that may be decent enough to work at. It's a thrift store in North Hollywood. So I hope it is as laid back, and fashionable as I am imagining right now.
Okay that's all.
Lazy fingers.
I'll update on this later.
I'm out.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Undercovers & Transexuals Gone Wild

Today my block got mad hot. My local neighborhood tranny got busted by detectives, for reasons unknown to your girl. All I really know is that when I got on my block this evening she was laid out on the curb in her drawls with DT's all around. I was like "what the fuck?" There were like at least seven detectives in plain cars (not a black & white in sight) on one tranny. I mean really. On top of this weirdness a little kid skater click I had never seen before were snitching to the cops about her. I couldn't hear what they where saying. But it was a trip, really.

The saddest thing about it. Well it's all sad really. But the other sad thing about it is that the tranny has a little dog, and I wonder if it's okay in her condo all alone. Who knows. One things for sure, city life ain't nothing to fuck with. It gets really rugged out here.

Oh, and I have a new city on my hate list.

Sun Valley... Die slow... You suck.

And I'm out.