Too many Strange Nightmares To Sleep

I had a dream I was in this strange Twilight Zone type community. I mean some of the stars from the show were even in the dream. It was real calm, and creepy, just like the The Zone. I was wondering around a sort of surreal, but familiar town. Where the people where friendly, but the place seemed well...out of place. Some of the buildings where just too old to be in a current town. Also I saw some of the city equipment, you know like street sweepers and whatever. The point is everything just seemed hella old fashioned for no good reason.

A pretty nice old woman saw I was confused about the whole thing, so she invited me back to her place to relax and try to figure it out. We meet up with her husband in route, and he thought he could help also so he went home with us. I recognized the man immediately as a Zone personality, but I didn't bring it up. I figured what good would it do. When I got back to the old couple's place they had been explaining the town to me the whole walk. You know like how it's pretty old, and they do things in a different way. Trying to make me less creeped out about how Twilight Zone the place was.

Well their house was no different. They lived in a creepy old Victorian house that just so happens to be a recurrent dream place of mine. Sometimes it's modern, sometimes I live in it, sometimes I just walk by it. This time this old couple lived in it. The couple introduced me to their kids. They had three creepy looking red haired ones. Two boys, and a girl. They looked like the red haired version of the kids from the movie Village of the Damned. You know dead eyes and the whole thing. They also had an older girl, maybe twelve who had dark hair, and seemed fairy normal for the setting she was in. I immediately got creeped out when I meet the kids, because they seemed way too young for this old couple.

Anyway at one point the red haired kids begin to get restless, and they started crying all over the place. So the parents ushered them into a back room which lead to a place I didn't want to know about. The dark haired girl stayed with me in the front room of the house. She assured me that this sort of thing happened all of the time. Which was no reassurance to me. I was so scared at this point I had freaking chills. I asked how long this sort of thing usually takes? I was ready to get the hell out of there. They where gone for less than two minutes, But the girl said they had been gone for eleven minutes. She also said they would not return for maybe a week. Well that freaked me out good. So I headed to the front door, and out of there with no protest for the child. Thank God for that.

I walked down a side street which ran adjacent to the house, so I was afraid the family would come after me. But they never did. I didn't know if they had gone to another dimension, or into some strange time vortex. The whole place felt like some vortex. I was just happy to be out of there. I eventually got to the end of a block. When I turned the corner and walked down a bit, the whole scene changed. I was in some semi deserted ghetto. I saw people at a store with a bus stop in front of it. I went inside to ask for directions, of if the bus would come. But the people where of no help. I kept walking a while. I found a bus got on, and was dropped off in this little beach community. It was sort of upscale, but low ball at the same time. Sort of like Venice but more of a Santa Monica vibe. I stated walking around, there was a lot of hotels. I got to a residential part, and I ran into my real life boyfriend. I couldn't have been happier about that. He brought a sense of normalcy to the whole thing.

He told me he was there to walk me home. So we begin to walk together, I had no idea where home was, but I was going there so I felt safe. I notice across the street we where walking towards the Bat-mobile was parked. It was the Bat-mobile from the second Batman movie. The one with Michael Keaton. I being a geek even in my dream got super exited, and wanted to go over to see it. A person got out. It was a women, and she Begin to walk toward our direction. She was very nice looking, dressed for a party I thought. She spoke to us in a pleasant manner at length. I can't remember what she said, only that she had the Bat-mobile as a Halloween thing, and would be returning it afterward. She went to a house, we waited for her because we had more questions concerning the Bat-mobile. When she left the house where no one was home she got into the car, another car pulled up, friends of hers. The people in the other car invited us to a party at 93something Riverside Dr. I couldn't hear the entire address. They drove away so fast we didn't get them to repeat it. We looked around but none of the street signs read Riverside Dr. We walked on.

Finally we came to a school type complex. It was full of young Black boys who looked really tough. It was like a reform school, but was supper huge. I had begin rapping while we walked up to the school. Some of the young Boys came over to talk to us about music. And than one boy with a bat started yelling at us about being trapped at the school. I said something that must have helped because he immediately curbed his aggression. I felt sorry for the boys, and wanted to get out of there, so we kept walking.

That's pretty much it. One other thing Jojo kept skateboarding the whole time we were walking and that really got on my nerves. Which is very unlike me. We never got to our destination. And I felt afraid, and trapped the whole dream.

To create.

I am a writer.

It's a struggle.

It's very hard for me to be totally honest about my entire life to you fuckers.

While you are out there constantly putting on the charades.

That drive me to the pen in the first place.

The Question of Technology

Are our digital friends our controlled substance?

Can you feel the beeping?

Can it hear my breathing?

Thousands of years from now will it be reaching for a human touch?

Is this the brink of digital madness?

The silence scares me.

The soothing glowing blue light upon my face comforts me.

Do I manipulate the technology?

Or does it (the machine) manipulate me?


- Josalisa

Planet 3

inside of every man, woman, and animal

is a resistance to this world of meaningless things

we claw with our nails, and fangs

to mold it, this space and time

we are all scientist

of the most intimate kind

blessed by the divine

to rock this land mass

to move this fire ball through space

around the sun, pass mars

boom!!!

through the Milky Way

They can see us comin'

They can see us comin'

wild with madness

wild with joy

wild and chanting

Earthlings, Earthlings

We Are One

Stop it. For real.

It shouldn't bother me, but I can't look pass when people focus on some dumb shit when real shit is going down. I live through a lot of unnecessary energies. I guess they must be there as a sort of lesson, or guide for future ideas, or accomplishments. But sometimes I just really wonder. Why do I have to see some of the things made clear to me in this life? I don't know if I really feel stagnated, or helpless to change many situations. I want to help people, and help myself in this life adventure. But sometimes I really wonder if that is even what I need to be doing. I know when I focus on my own life things work out a lot better for me. I feel more peace, and joy flow into me. I am also able to see what I can do to assist my fellow man, friends, or family (if anything) better when I try to change the way I view the world. I know I have a purpose in many situations. I just want to stay focused on that, and master my arts, and mathematics. So I can make the world a better place. Here's a poem:



This One Thing Can Never Be Moved

so I feel the joy inside
that makes me write
it's my little miracle
I can overcome the obstacles
'cause I know there are none
I learned that from the Matrix
my words are my weapon
I am a digital assassin
number 20121615
I really believe I have a fair shot
at winning this war that is yet to begin
so many faces of sadness
yet I wear a grin
it's called personal madness
creative sanity fighting through the worlds lack of humanity
with one weapon
the mind
and a vivid understanding of this place, and time

I see Everything. And it's too bright.

In light I dream
At night I write
Trying to balance something
All is not right
I am the beginning of everything
The end is close at sight
I feel the world's joy, and suffering
But now only through my eyes
At some point I thought to make it right
Now I know my power source is for more
Like dreams in the night tell more
The world is a mystery
A puzzled laid out for me
Will I ever solve it?
Will that be my demise?
I write these words with hope
That one day they will help me close my eyes

Dream 9/6/09

In my dream I worked for a shop owned my Steven Spielberg.
I thought it was a pot dispensary, but now I'm not sure.
I know the place sold pot, and also sold costumes.
I was getting off of work soon in the dream.
So I change into a Princess Leia outfit.
Was it a Halloween outfit?
Was it just a geek thing?
I'm not sure.
It wasn't traditional(the costume).
It was a mini skirt, and top two piece thing.
I remember thinking I need to put my hair in buns to work it all out.
Anyway.
I had a boyfriend in the dream. He was visiting me for the first time at my job (whatever kind of job it was). I was changing into my costume in the back of the store in a bathroom. Someone directed him to me. At that moment the Cops raided the store. He (my dream boyfriend) got me out of the bathroom, and we ran out the backdoor to his car. A powder blue Chevy 1969 Impala.
The place, and the car was surrounded my cops. So we jump out,and ran. We ended up at his Mom's place. She was a single parent. He lived in a single apartment with her. I remember the make up of the apartment. The living room had a couch, a chair, and a T.V. She was in the kitchen which was separate, and there was a door to the left of the living room down a short hall way. I thought it was a closet, or the bathroom.
He introduced me to his Mom for the first time. She came out of the kitchen to greet me on the couch. I was still wearing the Princess Leia outfit. See seemed not to mind, and invited me into the kitchen. I remember being happy I was wearing the costume. Like it protected me from something,I don't know what.
She was making food. I don't remember what it was. The two of them seemed to get along pretty well. she asked about the car. He told her he had to leave it somewhere, and would pick it up later. She seem curious, but knew not to ask too many questions.
By the end of the dream I knew I couldn't go back to work that day, and couldn't go home. I knew I would stay there with him, and his Mom. And I was wishing that hallway lead to a bedroom. I wanted privacy, but knew potentially there would be none. I wanted to find out more but this is all.

Notes:
When we ran out to the car we both got in. The Cops began to surround us. Not focused on us, but the store. We both got out, and ran. He was the lead, I followed.

The boyfriend in the dream seem like an image of my boyfriend in real life. With some small changes.
The run to his house did not take more than 3-4 dream minutes.
I recognized some of the details from when I came into work that day. Meaning at the very beginning of my dream I walked a few blocks to work. I didn't recognize the blocks then, or know what the business entrance looked like though I walk through the entrance.
However when I ran out of the store from the back parking lot with my dream boyfriend I did recognize the streets from earlier. I found this sort of strange.
I stole the Princess Leia costume from work.

This is all I remember. The details are fading even as a write this.