What is all this

So I'm dealing with unnecessary beef. I wonder what is the source. I often think in this situation the one fact I can hang on to is that it's not me. I feel like my energy overwhelms others often. I'm just a girl after all. I try to stay true to my dreams, and though this life adventure is hard for me. I try to stay among the joyful. I carry my pain, but I don't know. I just don't let it become the most important thing in my life. I know that is because my imagination, and my creativity. Both gifts given to me by God. So now would be the time to say thank you. Thank you.
I have these moments when I can't really figure out what the deal is. I know hating going down, and I just want to transfer it to love. But it just seem silly to me. I know folks look at my life, and say I'm on easy street. And all I can think is I've seen easy street, and It don't look like this. My dreams are coming true everyday, still I suffer. The path of the beautiful female. Hatred from the women that could help you. It's like being a female warrior. Forever on the counter-attack, or dealing with to much funky energy.
Whatever. Here's a poem.

On a spaceship
We would be freer on a little island
like this spaceship where we could only
be seen from far away
and we could laugh, and , love, and play
our dreams would become our reality
and we would forget the lonley ones
who cry for our company
on a spaceship we could fly away
and never have to look back this way again
if only we were astronauts
if only zero gravity we could feel
then we'd know our love was real
until then my heart is yours
and this poem is for me