I t doesn't matter

It's so simple to abandon the one you love
cause it' s too hard
so I suffer and I know this will go on
when one loves they know not what it is
so I'm turning my back on you too
all of you
I suffer because I love
and know not what it is
I have a shaky hand now when I write
what did I really think was going to happen
that you'd take me away from all this
that you'd know the answers to this puzzle
but you are just a kid
and I'm this woman whose heart hurts too much
they're breaking me
but I can still see the sun
I'm running so fast
and the pain still catches up
I just wanted joy
But I don't know what it is
I wonder how long will I live
and will my words survive
will you get me then